Saturday, November 25, 2006
its earli in the morning.. im up here online blogging... things happen fast and sometimes its almost to keep them updated at every single point of my life.. yst, i went happily to my sec school de orchestra concert, after tt u know such things la, frenz tt u haven seen for sometime and teachers would seat down n talk. u would never know wad time this kind of talks will last. i mean everyone has so mani things to sae and to update each other. i was happi, until! he started giving me attitude like "why u msg me," its like, i am with my frenz n teachers chatting awae he expect me to bring out my phone n keep messaging mehx.. its like i have all the chance in the world to chat to him, bt then how often do i even see my ex sch mates n teachers. then he decided to end off the message with onli a "k" when i replied ur msg, n obviously i did not reply tt message..
When everything ended, it was arnd 12 plus, i was on the cab i messaged him n said i was on a cab home n told him not to worri. it was like i was with lishi n yilin lehx, frenz tt i have known for years, i dunno what is so worrying... bt then nvm i decided to ask him to worri. n he reply was actualli " i juz dun like that i m gg out n nv tell him it will till so late" its like i din even know i will talk until so late lor... i wasnt wad i watch or rather there wasnt a choice ma.. n i told him that. he reply actualli came as " i will be worried. i dunno who u are with, wad u are doing, where u are." its like i told him tt i was at elias coffee shop talking with my frenz n teachers when he msg me in the midst of my talking session with my frenz n teachers. yet he said tt he dunno where i m, wad i m doing n things like tt..
one thing tt made me the most unhappi thing was tt he keep going " u going onli with gals arhx?" (when i was going) " Y u nv message de? alot of guys har?" (when i was talking to my frenz n teachers) its like c'mon! im not from a gals sch how can u expect 0 guys. juz makes me feel tt there is no trust for me at all lor.. i dun ask " u going with alot of gals arhx? " when he goes out n things like tt..
i have been like super stressed and depressed over project to a certain extend recently tt i haven been veri happi, he said he will help me find back my smile :). i was happi yst, until his messages removed my smile.
i dunno wad i m doing typing all this. cuz i know after this fight ends right, he will ask me to delete off this post n stuff... I mean its like this issue has happened b4, he cnt ask me to delete it n act like nth has ever happened... n worse his blog onli blogs bout unhappi things, when we are happi together, nth is being blogged, when he feels sad n needs attention, he blogs... its nt fair for me tt whenever i attempt to blog about something unhappi bout us, it has to be deleted. then if i do so, n he doesnt delete the one off his blog, great then i become the big bulli tt is always making him sad. ppl come to n tell me " his blog sound sad again".
im like juz sooooo used to it.
-It's all bout love- ;
